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Sunday, November 20, 2005
and paranoia it creates in me..
because we had promises, and sometimes it seems as tho ur making me look like the one at fault for breaking them.
and i get scared..
because i wud nvr want to hurt u, or be hated by you.
but u know why i chose u in the first place? it wasnt because of sympathy or because, i was leaving soon.
i had doubts initially, i even told u i was afraid it may not work out.. but things fell into place. and im just so grateful for that.
i chose u, because i saw something in u..something that no one else sees..a different person altogether. u r angsty and hurt and angry on the outside, but when i got to know u better, it was a warm gentle, loving n kind person that i saw..and despite ur bitterness, i saw so much to love abt you. its just that something about u i cant really tell, thats got me glued on to u.
and that is why, pls dont ever doubt me again.
its not apologies i want to hear at the end of the day, its not ur "im sorrys"
i just want ur trust in return,i want u to believe..
that the reason i am coming back this time, is not for anything else in this world but u. i swear.
why did u think i'd wanna leave to NZ for? thats cuz life was meaningless, and then, i had to meet u weeks b4 i left. did i not tell u, life is a bitch..
u are the only reason that brings me back.
i love u. remember that.
i love u ethan yee kok ming. i do.
Posted at 09:18 am by Ethan kun~
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 Okay.. My name is Ethan, People call me Kok, and I have an alter ego by the name of gangster kok.. I'm 19, I'm majoring in animation in THE ONE ACADEMY, I like to eat, sing, jump around and watch anime. Like any hot blooded guy, I like Girls too. I hate when people make gay jokes. I love drawing, and talking crap. Every damn second I think about sex.
Currently attached, I do believe that miracles happen.. Also singing in ragtag amateur band; the members are everchanging. Loves rock, alternative and anything to do with a live band. Loves acoustic tracks too.. wishes to perform one day. Supports the local music industry and wishes it would be more appreciated and not so underrated. Hates pop, loves quality movies and animations. Loves to do out of the ordinary stuff.
I live for adventure. I'm loyal (I SWEAR) and to summarise it all up.. I'm me.
SOmetimes though, Cheong Yen Ling comes to wrote stuff as well. She's still 19, like Kok, and is best described as a girl who smiles: ALOT. Currently in New Zealand and not really enjoying it, She hope to get the fuck out of New Zealand as quickly as possible. Enjoys Futsal, photoshopping people's faces, jumping around, cursing (Just like kok), Horses and a plethora of other things that this author ( yours truly KOK) doesn't know about.
Currently studyin in AUT, and currently attached to yours truly, she will be sometimes coming to add to this already crappy blog X)
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