because we had promises, and sometimes it seems as tho ur making me look like the one at fault for breaking them.

and i get scared..

because i wud nvr want to hurt u, or be hated by you.

but u know why i chose u in the first place? it wasnt because of sympathy or because, i was leaving soon.

i had doubts initially, i even told u i was afraid it may not work out.. but things fell into place. and im just so grateful for that.

i chose u, because i saw something in u..something that no one else sees..a different person altogether. u r angsty and hurt and angry on the outside, but when i got to know u better, it was a warm gentle, loving n kind person that i saw..and despite ur bitterness, i saw so much to love abt you. its just that something about u i cant really tell, thats got me glued on to u.

and that is why, pls dont ever doubt me again.

its not apologies i want to hear at the end of the day, its not ur "im sorrys"

i just want ur trust in return,i want u to believe..

that the reason i am coming back this time, is not for anything else in this world but u. i swear.

why did u think i'd wanna leave to NZ for? thats cuz life was meaningless, and then, i had to meet u weeks b4 i left. did i not tell u, life is a bitch..

u are the only reason that brings me back.

i love u. remember that.

i love u ethan yee kok ming. i do.